My Feelings

Hey there! It'? Been a damn long while i didnt post huh... This will may be my 1st and post for the year and this blog. After this post, i will change the blog setup.

Anyways, i wanna express my thoughts about my feelings these few years.

It has bothered me so much that i cant think about it anymore. It's a pain im the ass americans would say. The utter rejection that shot me down half a decade ago, and an indirect rejection not long ago lead me to doubtful toughts of 'should i accept this feelings and express it again'? It's too saddening...

Half a decade ago, i decided to express my feelings to a girl, and ended up shotgunned down hard. It scarred me for years. Few years ago another girl who i like (didnt express it) already had a boyfriend so the scar worsens to the point that it might not be recovered.

This year, that feeling came again. I can't tell... whether should i accept it, and just lock it away, or express it... i'm still scarred... every time i feel.this, i remembered about the past. It hurts... its too much... dont know if i could bare it or not... Well... i guess... i should keep it so i could keep lively... anyone can help me about this?

That's all i have to express for now... i'll keep on posting from time to time(probably by a new blog). Till then...

Kiotsukete ne, Ja Nee!


†Isaac Ysrael (Ichirou)†
†Graduate Of SASS 2009 & 2011†

Memories, Ups ↑ & Downs ↓

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It's been awhile... 7 months exactly.... Many Memories I Have Been Having During This Few Months... And Frankly, I'm Still Holding On For My Dear Life... I'll Try To Rewind It As Much As I Can Remember... Here Goes... ~.^

Well, I Can Tell You One Of My Experience Of A Lifetime... (checking On the details of the pic taken. give me a sec. can't rewind it without my pictures. ~.^) Oh Yeah! SASS had open dorm day on 22th july, As Far I Can Recall, Its Kinda Simple. But The Fact Is, This Year, It Was The Longest "Girls Dorm visit" Ever Made... I Think Its LIke, 10 minutes? 15 minutes? I Could Go Through All The Rooms & Take Pictures Eventually... I Seem To Forget Who Won Though... Hahahah!

I Can't Recall When Is The ALumni... Is It On 27-29 july? It Was Fun... They Had SASS Run On Sunday Morning, Its A Good Sight To See... ^_^ All I Can Recall Is, They All Calvin Made A Mistake On Putting Up A Fire On A Table Till It Was Burnt... hahahah!

The Others Are Just Usual... The Jail Game Isn't As Wicked As Before Anymore... (too bad :P) except that some of the people i hope to meet actually came... very happy to see that! ^_^

Okay This Pic Is Abit Scary... :P

PECK!!! Rest Awhile While We Meet Our 3 Ingredients!! Haha!

Now Where Were We, Oh Yeah! On The 30th Of August... SASS celebrated Independence Day... Everybody Goes Around The Campus Once & Sang The Independence Songs... What I Can Recall, David Is Very Energetic Until He Dance, Waving The Flag Around Singing... Its Very Delightful sight... Hahahaha! 

What Can I Say? Haha!

 Upper 6... The Last One Alive... Next Year None... huhu...

What Can I Say Here Is, LOL!

On The 16th Of September, Also Known As Malaysia Day... My Aunty Muda, Densia Siagian, Married. Its Very Nice, Thats Because Its A Garden Wed... 1st time ever (in my life, Don't Know About The Others Though... Hahah! If Want To See Those Pics, Come To My Album, Its All There. ~.^)

This Pic Here Is The... I Think Bear boy... (Note That His Name Is Isaac. Got Myself Confused With That Boy. Dagnammit...)

 There's My Aunty Muda... Nice Isn't It? Haha!

Having A Slice Of Cake? Haha! 

 The "Nephew's & Nieces"

On The Next Day, 17th september, I Went To Kudat With My Brother & Nephew (his son), Abraham... Its Actually An Unlucky Experience... all I Can Recall Is... The Car Got Stuck On A "crack" On The Hill At His New Farm (Front Side, Tilted about 35% degrees to the left). Actually, After Choked The Branches Below The Front, The Car could Get Out Freely. IF my brother had engaged the gear to 4L... It Took Us 2 hours To Realize He DIDN'T engaged It at the end... We Were Tired, Wet (it rained just as it got stuck few seconds after.), And Kinda Muddy... How Unfortunate... (don't know where's the pic... lost it probably haha!) Well, We went To Kudat & Get Some New Clothes & Washed... The Car Is Very Muddy At The Driver's Side (That's Cause The Rear Right Tyre Was Dangling Abit & Dragged The Mud While Trying To reverse.) I Drove It To Kudat & Back, But Not While At Kudat... Haha!

trying To Be Faster Here, Too Much To Say, Too Little Time Left.

I Think It Was On the 20th September... Adam Broke His Arm Trying To Reach The Branch... And It Was The Same arm Broken Last Year (I Think)... He Had Operation On Monday.... And Now On Straps... Aha! Hope He Recovers...

here's A Pic A Day After The Tragedy... Aunty Gerigitan Moti... Hahaha!

Few Days Ago Was Open Day For The primary 6 of most zone's To Come To SASS... Nothing Much Out Of The Ordinary... But Last Sunday, Was Teachers Open House Day (i mean night). It Was Full Of Fun And Excitement... I Can Recall That There's A Dancing Competition Called "Tarian Kodou Kodou". One Of The Pics I Like Is This...

 nice isn't it? hahah! Brennon (the guy in red in this pic) actually won!

Then There Was "Sumazau dance Of The Couples"... (sry pic crash, They Are Too Shy To Dance, They Just 'flash' by...)

And, For The 1st Time In SASS History (i think, Cause Never Been Done Before), There Was Lantern Festival! Simple As It Is, It's Very Unique... I Like It... ~.^

They Tried To Fly The Big One, But For Wind Reasons, It Failed...

Its Such A Great Memory, I Want To Remember It In Mind... ~.^

Well, That's All For Now (finally, I Finished It... man its so long.... x.x *big sigh of relief*)... I'll Be Posting More From Time To Time (As Frequent & Fast As Possible) Later... Till Then,

Kiotsukete ne, Ja Nee!
†Isaac Ysrael (Ichirou)††Graduate Of SASS 2009 & 2011†

My Dream That Haunted Me...

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It's Wednesday!!! It's Been about a month after I Made This Last Blog.... And This Time, I'm Telling About My Dream... The Dream That Made Me Woke Up With Tears Rolling Out From My Right Eye. Well, It's Kinda Blurry Now (Because It Happened On Monday Night) But I'll Try To Rewind It Anyways....

It Was At This Day, A Fair Day, Where I'm With My Families. Yeah Yeah, Families... But Not Just My Family, It Was A BIG Family Reunion. With All The Main Family & Family Related Members (For Sure I Can See is The Sibadogil's, There's Also Some Other Family Branches but I Couldn't Recall. I Also Can't Recall The Place, But Surely It's Like A Park Or Somewhat). We Were Happily Having Fun Together. Holding Hands And All. I Was With My Friends & The Someone Beside Me. Yeah, My Friends Are There Too... (They Are Amongst The People Whom I Cared & Loved, Other Than My Families.)

Suddenly, She (that someone) Became Abit Weird. She Said to Me That She Have To Go To The Toilet. So I Agreed & Continuing On The Party While She Go To The Toilet.

After Awhile, I Became Suspicious. I Wondered Why It Took Her So Long? The Dream Went Black Awhile, But I Surely Can Hear The Scream From Afar (somehow it's like a fast forward blackness).

When It Became Clear Again, I Approached The Place Where The Screaming Was Heard, & There She Was, Lying On The Floor Nearby A Public (public?) sink... There Was Blood On The Sink & Her Mouth.

Shocked, I Shake Her Hoping that She's Okay, But To No Effort She's Unconscious. 1 Of My Nephew With Some Family Members Approached Soon After To Check Out What Happened. Somehow, It Blackens Again. & When It Clears Again, I Was Holding My Nephew's Phone. I Was Going To Call The Ambulance While The others Keep And Eye On Her. Still Shocked & shaking, I Had A Difficult time Pressing The Phone Buttons & Keep On Pressing The Wrong Button.

The Scene Blackens Again, & When It Became Clear Again, I Found Out that She's Gone. Surprised, I Shouted Out Asked the Person Nearby "Where Is She...?" The Person Said, "She Went Away...".

Furious & Worried, I Stammered Away & Try To Find Her, Shouting "Where Are You???" it Was A Long Effortless Find Till I Screamed "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" Till I Woke Up With Tears On My Cheek.

Till Today, It Still Made Me Thinking About It & It Still Haunts Me.... I Sure Hope It Doesn't Happen.... >.<

I Wondered, Who Is She? I Know She's One Of The Persons I Cared & Loved, But Why Is My Dream Is About Her? I Just Can't Get It.....

Well... That's Just About It.... I Just Can't Let It Inside Me.... I'll Be Posting More Soon.... Till then....

Kiotsukete ne, Ja Nee!


†Isaac Ysrael (Ichirou)†
†Graduate Of SASS 2009 & 2011†

Februrary, The Month Of Love.

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Well, The Month Of Love Is Here, Anyone (That Have Spouse Or A Couple) Have Anything to Do Together?

Well, When The 1st Day Of the Month Came, I Was Watching "Stairway To Heaven" Philippines & Korean Version, After I Watched It, Something came To my Mind When I Relate The Story With My Past. I Was Like "How Wonderful It Is When My Life Is Like The Good Moments In The Story..."... But Then.... I Snapped Back Saying "WTH AM I THINKING?? The Past Is The Past! Even if I Regretted About What Happened & Should Happen, It Already HAPPENED! STOP THINKING BOUT IT!!!"..... Huh..... It Breaks My Heart Thinking About It... *sigh*

Back To The Topic, Valentine's Just Around The Corner.... The 14th Of February right? To Those That Have Soul Mates Or Goin To Plan To Become A Couple, What Plans Are You Goin To Do? don't Tell Me You're Just Goin To Sit In The House Like A Dummy?? Shish!! How Lame! At Least do Something Bout It! Now Wonder Some Of You Guys Become Single After Valentines!

As For Me, I'm Just Goin To Go With The Flow, How Single Rockers Go.... Hoping For A Miracle (If It Happens)... I'm Too Tattered & Torn About My Failed Tries & The Failure About Unable To Take Care Of Someone's Heart, & To React Faster.... If Fate Bless Me, I Will Have Someone Special To Share With My Life.... But Until Then, I Will Be A Fated Loner Till The End....

Well, To The Married & Couples, I Wish You An Early HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. Wished You Guys Have A Blessed Life....

Can't Think Of Anything To Write Much (Most Of What I want To Say Got Lost Because Of The Stupid Kids Yelling Around =.=) So I Guess this Is It For Now.... Till Then,

Kiotsukete ne, Ja Nee!
;-)

†Isaac Ysrael (Ichirou)†
†Graduate Of SASS 2009 & 2011†

Chinese New Year!!! The 1st Month Of The Year Experience

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Happy Chinese New Year Everyone! How's Your 1st Month Of The Year Doing? Okay? haha!

Well.... as For Me, I Had Gone The 1st month Abit Normal & Excited, Since There's Some Great Experiences Had.

Well, 1stly, I Didnt Go Anywhere this Chinese New Year This Year.... Aww.... So Bored....

Me & Ma Man Richard Had Gone To The Interview At Rasa Ria At The Sulaiman Area. At 1st We Interviewed For Housekeeping, But Instead Was Recommended For Front Office (concierge a.k.a bellman). That Was Great! But Well, Waiting For the 2nd interview next week probably.... Have To Cut My Hair... Guh....

SASSIANS Had Just Done Merentas Desa Last Friday. It's Kinda Much Shorter Distance Than The Previous Ones.... Around 5-6km only? C'mon.... We Ran Much Further Before! They Shouted "1 minggu!" for they're holidays later on but unlucky, only till Tuesday... haha!

I Heard They're Goin To Have School Sports This February, But I Don't Think I Could See Them Participate If I'm Accepted To Rasa-ria... Aha! Oh Well... I Hope My Former House, The Blue House Wins Yo.....

There's A Progress At My House, The Road Has Been Cemented! YAY!!! No More Stepping On Muds Already... And There's A Puppy Staying At My House Now... It's My Nephew's Pup Actually But They Can't Keep It At Their Place Coz Animals Aren't Allowed In The Condominium... So Yeah... The Pup Is Kinda Sticking To Me Much... It Didn't Whine Much Anymore, What A Relief!!

Well... That's All From Me, Kinda Short Isn't It? Oh well... I'll Keep It Updated From time To Time, IF I Have Time That Is... Haha!! Till Then...

Kiotsukete ne, Ja Nee!


†Isaac Ysrael (Ichirou)†
†Graduate Of SASS 2009 & 2011†

Back With New Spirit

Aloha! I'm Back!

Well It's Been A Long While, Since Last I Posted... (OMG!! 6 Months Already?!@@) So I Decided I'd Post Today, I Got Around 15 minutes Only left, But Here Goes....

For The Past Few Months, It's Been Wrecking... Many Sweet & Bitter Memories... (well mostly It's Bitter...) My Heart Almost Shattered Coz Of What I Endure For The Past Months...

Well, I Made Things Right Much For The Last Few Months, & It's Kinda A Relief....

Let Me Tell You About What Happened Weeks Before Holiday Starts. It's Like A Sunday Morning I Guess.... 6th Of November? I Was Getting Ready To Go Out As Usual, When Suddenly I Saw Something Odd About My Mom... She Suddenly Is Like So Weak, She Tripped And Bended Over When I Was About To Put On My Shoes, I Decided To let Her Go Up 1st, And Wait For A Few Hours, But It Wasn't Good...

Worried, I Called My Brother At None, And Sent To The Nearest Hospital. After A Few Hours, She Was Sent To QEH. She's There For Only 2 Days & Let Her Out On Suprvision. I Didn't Know Since I Was At Home For 1 Week. & EVeryday I Prayed For Her.

Now It's Like 2 Months After The Incident, She Recovered Much, That's A Relief. But She's Not Kinda The Same Anymore. She's More Weak Than Before. So I Can't Blame.

Well, I Make A Confession, I Confessed 2 Times To 2 People At 2 Different Times, And To My Expectation (with The Latest Confession, That Is Yesterday) I Got Rejected Coz I Was Too Late... Oh Well... I Hope It Goes Well Between Us... And You Know, I Was Really Calm When I Heard It (the 2nd result on my 2nd confession), & Really Happy Our Friendship Didn't Shake.

You Know, My New Year's Resolution, Is Goin To Help Everyone I Can & Make Them Smile =)
If They Smile I'm Happy ^^

Well, That's All For Now... I Gotta Go... I'll Be Updating The Latest One Soon (with Pics Too) ^^

Kiotsukete ne, Ja Nee!


†Isaac Ysrael (Ichirou)†
†Graduate Of SASS 2009 & 2011†

Back From the Disappearance

Aloha I Thought I Would Be Gone Forever After the 1 week gone... but guess again... I'm Back!! ;-) (thanks to those who blessed)

Ok... It's Almost School Time & I Didn't Update Till Now.... Been Busy This Days... haha! Anyways, I'm Goin To Tell You Guys About This Years Task Force At Kg.Toburon, Kota Belud.

It Was A New Exprience In A New Environment. Unfortunately No River Bathing This Time. Aww.....

We Left SASS At around 10:00h++, playing with the walky talky all the way till we arrived at our destination at around noon. There, We Were Divided Into 4 groups. Group 1 Consists of Elly(Leader), Nickson, Jocelyn, Jelly. Group 2 consist Of Dovell(Leader), DJ, Lovelyn & Febryani. Group 3 consist of Andy(Leader), Alex, Ann, Velinah(Jelly's Sister) & Calvin. Lastly Group 4 consists Of Melvin(Leader), Adderly, Agnesia, Amanda & Myself. The Girls Sleep At 2 Different Houses (1 & 2 at one house, 3 & 4 at another) while us Boys Sleep In The Church. The 2 Teacher's (Sir Ron & Herbert) sleep in a Tent outside just in front of the Church door.

We Had An Enjoying Break Sipping Tea & Milo Till It Was Worshiping time at 18:00h. Well, It Was A Restless Night Though. can't Seem To Sleep Much Coz Of The Mosquito's Before We Sleep We All Had To Hide In Adderly's Mosquito Net Just because Of Bee's! LOL! And DJ Snored Like A Speed Boat! What A Fast & Loud Snore!! Yikes!






It's A Tyring Day At This 2nd Day At Toburon. We Group 3 & 4 Go To A Nearby Rubber Tree Farm To Cut The Grass & Bushes. And It's Kinda Tyring Since It's At A Slope. Ended Up Twisted My Left Ankle. Gah!!! At 14:00h We Have Our 1st APTA. Only 10 Children Came. Not As Expected But oh well... Had A Good Time With The kids Till we finished late. Had To Eat Dinner Late For That.... Dovell Snored & became delirious For Quite Some Time. So I Can't Quite Sleep.

On The 3rd Day, We Group 3 & 4 Had To Walk For 30 minutes To Our Workplace ending up having My Left Ankle Injure More. I Also Lost My Shoes (got damaged totally). But We Found A Lil Bird! I Was Happy because 15 children came at this day. We Have Fun With The Children. They Even Came For Night Worship! Yay!







The children Made An Game Item Named "Gegundang" (is that true?) at the this day, But No One Passed The Game Except Jelly & Sir Salleh (wow, didnt know he could play that). Dovell Became Delirious Again Suddenly say "Burung Pipit Terbang!" hahahahaha!!














I Still Remember Adderly Put The Bird On His "bird" Just That Elly Won't Beat It. But In The End, The Bird Pecked His "Thing". ahahaha!

Too Bad It Was Dead The Next Day When Welvin Throw It & Was Eaten By A Cat. aw...










On The 4th Day, We Became More Intimate With All The Children, I Remembered All Of Their Names Too Now!! Here's A List Of Children's With Their Teacher's.

Children = Teacher

Wan2(farly) = alex
Phoby = Lovelyn
Ein = Amanda
Ani = Melvin
Welvin = DJ/Dovell
Giyol = Elly
Andderry = Calvin
Alvin = Adderly
Roddick = Me
Ellyvie = Ann
Ertina = Surabaya
Danny = Jelly/Jocelyn
Jennet = Jocelyn
Max@Dominicus = Andy








Andy Mastered The Ggundang While Other's Fail. That Was Fun... haha! I Wonder If Dovell Became Delirious Again Tonight?










The 5th Day Is The last Day Of Our Teachin. We Had Fun with The children. I Helped Lovelyn's Studnet Revising Her Memory Verse. She Succeeded Even Ein & Ani Succeeded When Helping Them. I Heard Ein is GYB. I Hope She Comes.




We Had An Exciting Morning, Going To The Tamu & Eat Mee Sup. Though I Had A Stomach Ache So I Had To Go Home Early After Awhile....








I Still Remember A Scene Where Surabaya Said, "Kalo ayam sy main pilih2..." And Welvin Struck Her With The Word "Ko Kaya Ka Main Pilih2?" hahahaha.... that was so funny!





On Our Last Day(6th day) Sir Salleh Got Stuck In The toilet Coz He Tied The Rope Too Tight. So He Ended Up goin Out At The Side. haha!














Closing Of APTA was launched & The Parents Came, It Was Wonderful! Sit Nelton Came With His Special Instrument! Its Amazing!!










We Had Potluck At Noon. At 14:30h, We Go To Sea 1 hour walk from our place, We Go To The Hill Where It Was Rumored There's Line. To Our Disappointment, There's No Line. When We Came Back At 18:00h, Adderly, Alex, & Nickson (those who late joined, eventually didn't) told us aobut their story about being lost around. it was quite funny i say. We Had Social Night With Our Students Till 23:00h. It was A Memorable One.

Oh yeah! I Found 2-3 Almost Near Same Names This Time! Wanna Know?





Welvin & Melvin!












Anderry & Adderly!















Finally! The Sensation! Elly & Erlly!










We Left The Next day At around 12:00h. Gave 1 Last Goodbye To The Kids. How Heavy Hearted It Was To leave The Place. It Reminded Me of Kg. Tinogu Suddenly By How Active & Lovable those Kids Are.....

It Was Very Memorable.... Hey! Gotta Ask Agnes Bout The address!! I Wanna Keep In Touch With The Toburons... ^^

Well, That's All From Me, Catch My Latest Update Sometime Soon!

All About The Photo's All The Way Can Be Seen Through This URL's :

My Point Of View :

Part 1 : http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.2001824612631.119757.1454050171
Part 2 : http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.2001993456852.119764.1454050171
Part 3 : http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.2002092099318.119769.1454050171
Part 4 : http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.2002178701483.119773.1454050171

Amanda's Point Of View :

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.228151880545145.76633.100000510057884
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.228134047213595.76622.100000510057884

Lovelyn's Point Of View :

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.227740677253122.77750.100000515748552

Check It Out K? Look Up For My Latest Updates!!
Till Then,

Kiotsukete ne, Ja Nee!



















†Isaac Ysrael (Ichirou)†
†U2 Of SASS 2011†